I am fully aware that this season will be long for me, it will take time, I think the grieving process is extremely important but I am also aware that for those that have not experienced grief or have gone through it themselves it is hard to comprehend and understand the depths and layers of the grieving process. I will still touch on how I am doing here and there, but am struggling yet trying very hard to move forward. Bear with me, as my blog will not be turning into my journey with grief, but I will be me and comment honestly and openly about my feelings as I move forward. We are all in different seasons of life and it is important in this journey of life to understand one another. I remember listening to friends in their season of loss, tucking thoughts they shared away. Now that I am again in my own season of loss, these thoughts and feelings make even more sense and I understand their journey so much more clearly and what they were trying to convey. I first experienced death of a loved one at a very early age. I remember vividly the pain and feelings, the questions and the struggle. I took from that complete and total empathy and understanding and shared love and kindness with others when their season of loss came. Through my sadness, I tried so very hard to help comfort those that felt the same pain I felt first so long ago. I listened and I was just there to comfort and support. From that first loss, at such a young age, I am able to completely relate and comfort my own young girls as they grieve. I had no idea all those years ago that when my daughters were the same age as I was then, that they would be experiencing grief unimaginable all these years later. I am so thankful that I can be here for them.
|Dad's apartment numbers outside his door.|
|A small stack of Dad's files and boxes to be sorted through. One of several stacks, in several rooms.|
|Beautiful dried flowers from an arrangement sent to our family.|
|Taking time to enjoy beauty and life around us, even when we don't feel like it! It cheers the spirit and helps heal.|