Before we decided to try changing our eating habits, I was humming along quite well. I really felt like things (home making) were going quite well and I was very happy. I was learning and exploring new territories in my baking and cooking skills and excited about trying new things. After watching a wonderful documentary we decided to change our cooking. Yes, this seems quite simple. We cut out meat, eggs, dairy, salt, sugar. We previously only used whole grains as much as possible but really tried to eat only whole foods. This entailed traveling extensively to another city to a health food market as our local food stores did not carry what we were seeking. The cost was outrageous to purchase the products and after spending hours preparing meals I felt sad because I wasn't enjoying the flavor. Some recipes were quite good, but many just felt like they were missing something. Do not get me wrong. I have never felt in my life like we have eaten healthier than we did, but our whole family was not enjoying what I was spending long hours preparing. After much debate I have decided to return to our traditional way of cooking, incorporating a few wonderful lessons learned. It is possible to cook with much less butter and fat. There are wonderful sweeteners that are healthy and sweet is appreciated when used sparingly. Vegetables are delicious and there are many ways to prepare them without using butter in every dish. All is not lost, in fact much has been gained. I have learned some new skills, and learned what works for our family and what does not. Mostly, I am rejoicing in being able to resume exploring and learning new skills in the kitchen. I feel like my restrictions have been lifted. It has been such a set back that I even asked a co-moderator to step in for me, and she graciously accepted writing a segment to appear on the forum later that has to do with baking. It was a skill I had eagerly looked forward to writing about and learning more about before writing. Now I look forward to learning from her writing as I start spreading my wings again and finding my way around the kitchen.
At the moment in all honestly I just feel sad. Seriously? Yes! I absolutely love preparing delicious meals for my family and when you spend most of your day preparing food for your family that nobody enjoys that feels horrible. They were very respectful and grateful to have these meals, but I could tell they were being polite and myself included did not enjoy them. Today I plan on spending time menu planning, constructing a shopping list, and planning what I will make for dinner. As I type even that last sentence I feel uplifted in my soul! Food is such an important part of our lives and our home. It's part of our culture and our memories, our time when spent gathering involves food and drink, our gardens are centered on providing delicious healthy foods for our home. It is important and should be enjoyed. So the restrictions are lifted, and I am looking forward to cooking again. They key here is looking forward, that is something I have not felt like doing for a while in the kitchen. I can feel the joy for cooking returning and it feels good. Wishing everyone, no matter what your eating style joy in the kitchen :)